Do I really love God?

How much do I really love God? Really love Him?

What would characterize people's lives if they loved God - really loved God - a whole lot? They would love other people, making time and space for them, and giving them energy. They would spend time with Jesus, soaking in His Word, and hiding it in their hearts. They would enjoy conversation with Him in prayer. They would be so wrapped up in Jesus that nothing else would come out of their mouths except what was good and pleasing to Him. They would obey His commands, and believe that what God commands in the Bible is for us to live by today as well. They would follow His specific call on their lives, submitting to Him as Lord.

I'm not sure I really love God. I spend my time and energy running around crossing off tasks on my list, and hurrying through my busy schedule. I don't put real energy into loving people. I"m so tired with the rest of my hectic life that I just don't have any energy left to give even if I want to. Time with God is hurried. I give Him my leftover time instead of my first time. While memorizing scripture use to be a daily part of my life, now I push it aside and make it wait till tomorrow. My prayer time is passionless. My attitude is ugly. My desires are selfish. My obedience is half-hearted.

Nothing about loving God would be dull or boring or mechanical or half-hearted or legalistic if it flowed from a heart that loved Him - really loved Him. So do I love Him?

Father, thank You for loving me when I don't love You like I should - really love You. Forgive me for all of my betrayal kisses. Help me love you well. I want to fall head over heels in love with Jesus all over again. Thank You. Amen.